The Navajo does not look for beauty; he generates it within himself and
projects it onto the universe.
This moment in time Morgan is asleep and the universal energy speaks to me. I am sharing this with you.
I think what is being a mother? Is it something I should do with utter perfection?
I find I don't know what perfection is in raising Morgan.
I find I know heat up a towel in the dryer when I am changing her. I tell her I have her cozy ready and she should hurry up so she doesn't miss its warmth.
I remember her birthday party yesterday. I could see her beauty really, just natural beauty. I knew it was something she was emitting, projecting into the party crowd. I thought what happened to me? Where is my ability to generate beauty? Then today some one said to me, "I can see your happiness in your face, you look so pretty." So I find I did not have to do anything... just be. Now I realize they did not say beauty but for me today pretty is ok.
jan 29 06
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Right now I am trying to make dinner, while Morgan sits on the floor watching babe 2 which I don't really like. Morgan on the other hand does.
I am typing in this blog, which I feel guilty about thinking there must be something I could do besides typing. But because I love my journal I will continue to type.
We are waiting for mark to come home from geo-cashing.
He was making fun of me yesterday calling me a blogger. Which is ok, I suppose.
I guess having an open journal on a web site, is what people in 2006 call blogging.
Morgan's birthday is on Thursday and she will be 3. When I had her in 2003 it was the Super Bowl Day.
I am worried about the birthday on Saturday and should be cleaning. I think.
As Morgan is now in the office and climbing on the newly cleared off dining room table, she tells me the computer doesn't have a mouth.
Could this be true?
As she just farted I will leave the computer with she and I laughing about it.
1-26-06
I am typing in this blog, which I feel guilty about thinking there must be something I could do besides typing. But because I love my journal I will continue to type.
We are waiting for mark to come home from geo-cashing.
He was making fun of me yesterday calling me a blogger. Which is ok, I suppose.
I guess having an open journal on a web site, is what people in 2006 call blogging.
Morgan's birthday is on Thursday and she will be 3. When I had her in 2003 it was the Super Bowl Day.
I am worried about the birthday on Saturday and should be cleaning. I think.
As Morgan is now in the office and climbing on the newly cleared off dining room table, she tells me the computer doesn't have a mouth.
Could this be true?
As she just farted I will leave the computer with she and I laughing about it.
1-26-06
Monday, January 23, 2006
I find I cannot sleep as the universal energy keeps talking to me.
I am glad you found this page as I have much to say and I am even amazed that I have a reader to read these mispelled and un puncuated words.
Where should I start?
Who am I?
I think should people know I have a family? A husband ,a daughter, sisters with children of their own
a mom who is dying
Well I do have a husband and his name is mark, I have a daughter,sisters and a mom who is dying.
Mark and I met in college at the Art Center of design in the 80's.
I loved him from the first minute I saw him in the black and white lab to be exact. He looked like paul revere.
This is a long story so I will try to edit it down.
so as life progressed mark and I were soon living together. when winter came his heart told him to leave me and go skiing.
He went away skiing and I never really saw him again.
Well, I saw him once when I first bought my house in long beach. I found him to not really be interested in me romantically so it was as you say unrequited?
Any way life went by like it usually does.
And about 5 years later I was thinking of mark. I was actually in a wedding in Ireland, thinking about mark.
I thought... Mark was the best guy I have ever been with. Too bad that never worked out.
Well when I got home I found an email from him. I was not really surprised. Things work like that for me, as i am sure you have found that out to. What you think about shows up. So anyway I called him and flew up to san fran. to see him. I saw him standing at the airport with roses. Fell in love all over again. Sold my house in long beach moved here got married and had morgan.
Hence I am sitting here at 6am writing this down for someone like you to read.
How did this site even make its way to the internet?
Funny you ask.
Well way back when (which would be 20 years ago in life time) I didn't really know what the web and web sites were really. All I knew was my friend nathan had one.
So I begged my mom for the 100.00 is cost me to get one.
I told her one day someone will want to buy the name gaelen.com from me. No one believed me . I kept saying that someone will want to buy gaelen,com though.
Well one day someone did want to buy gaelen .com from me. They even wanted to pay me 10,000.00 dollars. knowing that all things are impermanent I sold this man gaelen.com for 10,000.00 dollars.
Hanse though a long journey, this is a place you can read about me. Its all about me of course.
Anyway here is a place to see pictures off morgan,me and mark and the people we know. its amazing to think all you need is: a person who knows how to put together a web site, some money to pay that person who in this case is mark Armer, a digital camera and time your for your self to look at.Of course, listen to what your mind is hearing in this vast energy field and write it down.
Now feeling like I want one more hour of sleep, I will go to bed.
jan 23 2006
I am glad you found this page as I have much to say and I am even amazed that I have a reader to read these mispelled and un puncuated words.
Where should I start?
Who am I?
I think should people know I have a family? A husband ,a daughter, sisters with children of their own
a mom who is dying
Well I do have a husband and his name is mark, I have a daughter,sisters and a mom who is dying.
Mark and I met in college at the Art Center of design in the 80's.
I loved him from the first minute I saw him in the black and white lab to be exact. He looked like paul revere.
This is a long story so I will try to edit it down.
so as life progressed mark and I were soon living together. when winter came his heart told him to leave me and go skiing.
He went away skiing and I never really saw him again.
Well, I saw him once when I first bought my house in long beach. I found him to not really be interested in me romantically so it was as you say unrequited?
Any way life went by like it usually does.
And about 5 years later I was thinking of mark. I was actually in a wedding in Ireland, thinking about mark.
I thought... Mark was the best guy I have ever been with. Too bad that never worked out.
Well when I got home I found an email from him. I was not really surprised. Things work like that for me, as i am sure you have found that out to. What you think about shows up. So anyway I called him and flew up to san fran. to see him. I saw him standing at the airport with roses. Fell in love all over again. Sold my house in long beach moved here got married and had morgan.
Hence I am sitting here at 6am writing this down for someone like you to read.
How did this site even make its way to the internet?
Funny you ask.
Well way back when (which would be 20 years ago in life time) I didn't really know what the web and web sites were really. All I knew was my friend nathan had one.
So I begged my mom for the 100.00 is cost me to get one.
I told her one day someone will want to buy the name gaelen.com from me. No one believed me . I kept saying that someone will want to buy gaelen,com though.
Well one day someone did want to buy gaelen .com from me. They even wanted to pay me 10,000.00 dollars. knowing that all things are impermanent I sold this man gaelen.com for 10,000.00 dollars.
Hanse though a long journey, this is a place you can read about me. Its all about me of course.
Anyway here is a place to see pictures off morgan,me and mark and the people we know. its amazing to think all you need is: a person who knows how to put together a web site, some money to pay that person who in this case is mark Armer, a digital camera and time your for your self to look at.Of course, listen to what your mind is hearing in this vast energy field and write it down.
Now feeling like I want one more hour of sleep, I will go to bed.
jan 23 2006
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